sterek headcanons?

atticuos:

OKAY. I HAVE LOADS OF HEADCANONS FOR THESE TWO OKAY.

but yesterday I was in a sour mood and it made me think of Stiles being in a bad mood [cuz Stiles is me and I am Stiles srsly]

And I got thinking on how he’d come home all pissed off bc someone was a dick or literally anything that could’ve gone wrong did go wrong, or was generally stressed for a case that wouldn’t just make sense to him, now that Deputy!Stiles could totally be a thing, I thought of that a lot.

And of course at home he’d have Derek waiting for him, And maybe it’s just at the start of their relationship and Derek would just try not to respond, wait until the storm passed in a way, and maybe sometimes it worked, but lately it only seemed to make Stiles angrier.

Because Stiles knew that he was being a complete dick, he knows he becomes this mean person when he’s mad and depressed, and he hates it, and most of all hates the fact that Derek is the one that he takes it out on. And he hates even more that Derek lets him. Hates himself even more thinking that he’s no better than Kate and Jennifer as he uses him like a punching bag and Derek just takes it, because maybe he’s used to it. Stiles hates it, hates himself so much for that and he’s so angry at Derek too.

And one day he snaps, screaming at Derek to not just stand there and take it like he deserves it, HE DOESN’T “FIGHT BACK YOU ASSHOLE, SCREAM AT ME. TELL ME I’M A DICK AND I DON’T DESERVE YOU”

And Derek finally yells at him back “YES YOU’RE A DICK AND I HATE IT WHEN YOU GET LIKE THIS!”

And Stiles is so so so relieved, because that’s exactly what he wanted, he wanted Derek to challenge him like he did in everything else, to not tiptoe around him like he wasn’t sure he was allowed to be there when Stiles got like this, because no matter what, no matter in what awful mood he was he always loved Derek, nothing could ever change that. And he smiles after Derek yelled at him, nods “Yes, I am and I hate it  too, and you don’t have to let me be like this to you, Derek. You don’t have to take it, you’re not my punching bag. You’re my partner.”

And while he says that Derek is looking at him wide-eyed like Stiles is telling him some mind blowing thing, and he wants to cry bc it really isn’t’ but with Derek’s history with relationships it is, and he hates that he was like this to him.

And that night there’s still some tension but in the end Derek is the one to reach out and touch Stiles’ shoulder while they’re lying in bed (bc Stiles feels like a dick and isn’t sure if after how he behaved Derek was okay with Stiles touching him) and Stiles turns, and he really feels like breaking down but he doesn’t because he needs to have a serious conversation with Derek, about their relationship, about how to make it work in a way that is not screwed up, “I love you, I love you so much Der, and I know I’m an asshole and you don’t have to take all of that shit from me just because you love me, it just makes me feel worse.”

Derek frowns but nods.

And after that whenever Stiles is in a sour mood and starts making mean comments, Derek snaps right back. with no effort at all.

And Stiles always feels instantly better.

Because he knows Derek and him are a really good duo, their past lives and experiences just made their relationship a little more complicated than it would be if they met in different circumstances, maybe in a life without so much pain.

But it’s okay in this life too, as longs as they are willing to work on it, as long as they call out on each other, and love each other, he knows they’ll be fine.

@hoechlbutt sorry?